My new Angel

I can’t say that everything’s okay
‘Cause I can see the tears you’re crying
And I can’t promise to take the pain away
But you can know I won’t stop trying

I’ll be the angel by your side
I will get you through the night
I’ll be the strength you can’t provide on your own
‘Cause when you’re down and out of time
And you think you’ve lost the fight
Let me be the angel
The angel by your side

 -

Mom raised my siblings and I to be strong individuals. As much as I want to crumble and hide under a blanket until this storm passes, I have to keep going. More than anything, my heart hurts for Cameron, Dylan, Savannah, Cole, and Adam. Mom was the best and most loving Grandma. She was never hard spoken, never tried to mother her grandchildren, and always made them feel so loved and important to her. It hurts to know that my little girl won’t get to experience my mom’s love, but I know she will at least get to feel it. It’s within all of us. Learning to become a mom without my own mom’s advice will be my greatest challenge, although I am lucky she has already taught me so much.  A mom is an irreplaceable person in any girl’s life, but I am blessed to have such an amazing husband and family to help me along my new journey. She was my role model, biggest fan, advice giver, very best friend, and now my guardian angel.

23 Weeks

   *I'll get a picture up when I finally get around to taking one!*

How far along: 23 Weeks!

Baby Size: A grapefruit {10.5-11.8 inches, 12.7-20.8 oz}

Maternity clothes: I’ve finally bought a few things, but need more!

Sleep: Still pretty good other than some aches and pains

 

Gender: GIRL! There is nothing in this world better than a mother-daughter relationship, and God sure blessed us with the timing of this sweet girl.

Movement: All the time! Her most rowdy times so far are between 9-10am and right before bed. Collin even felt his first kicks the other night. It’s the most amazing feeling!

Looking forward to: Working on the nursery.

Food cravings: Fruit!

  Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope

  

What I miss: Sleeping on my stomach

Symptoms: I’m not exactly sure what round ligament pain is, but I think that’s what I’ve been feeling. My stomach feels so tight and cramped lately, along with some major back pains.

  

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Mood: With everything going on, it’s hard to say I feel happy, but I am feeling extremely blessed to have a healthy little girl growing perfectly on schedule.

Best moment this week: Our nursery chair was delivered and we’ve purchased a couple other things for the nursery.